Slip Into Comfort

I’ve written before about noticing that while I’m sitting I can feel the same buzz from my body I get through Vipassana.

Finding neutral. Not looking for anything or worries about anything just enjoying a perfect moment.

Just before I sat to have a smoke one of my favourite songs came on. In my relaxed, Vipassana body feeling, his voice resonated over my entire body giving a new feel to the energy.

The teacher at the Vipassana retreat warned us to not get addicted to craving these feeling states but to enjoy them when they happen. That confused me and still does. But right now, good music, relaxed, sitting on my balcony and the body sensation from meditation, I have slipped into comfort.



I know it looks that way, but I really haven’t stopped writing. I have only stopped posting. As I explained in a post, I may not have “posted” yet, I’m focussing on “spoons”. That means that if something does not immediately feel like it is what I should be doing, I decide to either stop, do it less or if I must do it, do it anyway.

Truth is, I’ve continued to write at the same frequency, it is the act of posting I find laborious. I need to streamline that process. I could start by doing my original writing in a post instead of in a note. Also, the time I take to add links to the topics, etc., is not useful. No one has EVER clicked a link in this blog, with the slight possibility that the “free” blogs don’t track that. In other words, they have and I don’t know it.

Also, the frequency of my posts was out of balance. I have been doing every 11 hours. I think I’ll try every 17. That will still give me a rotating “clock” so I’m not posting at the same time every day, but it shouldn’t be as demanding. I do prefer being slightly behind my real life.



My Nails are Back

This is a historical picture. This colour suited my deck and being outside for sure!

It has been astonishingly obvious why I wanted nice nails. I’m always looking at my hands because most of what I do involves them. Why not have stunning nails that make you feel you are creating a nice view for yourself? Like gardening in some ways.

I haven’t decided on a colour yet. I wanted a cheap blue for the ball game this weekend. Mother’s Day and all, and we are going to see the Blue Jays live. I couldn’t find any that was both the right colour and inexpensive. It is not a blue I would wear normally.

A decision still to be made on colour. I wouldn’t want to be the colour of the other team either! I’ll have to find out who they’re playing.

Blogging, Life Coaching


One of my favourite meals. Lasagna and Ceasar Salad. I make the lasagnas up 16 at a time, so it is a staple around here.

About five days ago I turned a corner on my eating. I’ve read similar words before and I hope these turn out to be true for me this time. Suddenly I am not overeating. I just started to trust myself.

I first had to dismantle all of the rules I’ve told myself about what I should and should not be eating. Instead of listening to my body I was making the translation through the word understanding.

What I mean by that are thoughts like, “I ate 200 calories, I can have more.” “I didn’t eat lunch I can eat now.” “I shouldn’t have that.” “I should have this.” Among others… I stopped interpreting my hunger and desire for food through this lens.

I just noticed when I was doing it. As I am writing, I do remember one time I overate….But it seems to have vanished. For the most part I am just losing interest when I am sated

I have tried to dismantle the belief that every thing is good or bad for you. It took a  huge amount of overeating a wide variety of forbidden foods before I trusted myself. My “social self” who learned all of the rules about eating from reading the opinions and “scientific facts” that are common in our media. We’ve been taught if we are fat we should follow strict rules of starvation. Little too heavy for a Friday evening.



The teaching about Dāna, as far as vipassana is concerned, is that you practice what you have learned for a while. Once you determine what the benefit is to you, you decide what you should contribute to the vipassana organization. There is no requirement to donate anything.

The first time we were allowed to speak, at the end of the Nobel silence, they were set up to take payment. There were a lot of “old students”, which means people who have already taken the ten day course previously. They would find it easier to know what an appropriate donation was for themselves.

I was thinking about looking up my budget, to solidify what I plan to give. An impressive amount, no doubt. Truth is, I’m finding what I have learned has improved my life already, a mere seven weeks later.

Blogging, Life Coaching


I just sent out the dates for my two new courses, for those individuals who requested advance notice. I immediately felt, well, insecure.

I just dealt with a pocket of insecurity from my childhood and this time I am acknowledging it and feeling the energy surfing through my body.

There is an actual vibration in my upper abdomen. I think I’ll sit with it for a moment and just let my body protest. Out of my comfort zone? You bet!

I guess I’ll just have to wait and see if anyone is interested enough to sign up!

Blogging, Spirituality


I wanted to share a video that illustrates how I see our best future. What she shows is how the majority of us can impact the world around us. I interpret our contribution as sharing positivity and giving in ways that help each other.

*Full disclosure, I am a Martha Beck certified coach and this 9 minute video is Martha Beck.